I just dont understand why...
i feel unsecure...
feel not peace at all...
feel so much hatred...


when i m in this family with...
the fella around...


why dont they understand me?
what is this all unsatisfied feeling?
for so many years i've been indulge in this problems...
But how come my parent wont understand my needs...
just wont understand me...
even i say it out my feelings...
will they understand me?
i will still stay on my path...with the same chaos...
my patient has it limits...
but even it has reach over the limits...
i still hang on there trying to defense whats right....

From the beginning,
i been trying to change it..
trying to be good to him...
but then it turns up vice versa....
i will remember what he did to me forever...
nobody knows...
my parent dont even ask...
that is why i m like this...
dont they realize?
dont they understand?
i have things that anybody wanted...
freedoms,food,shelter...
but they dont understand my feelings...
especially him...
did he ever try to change it?
did he ever think?
so selfish of him...

someday...
my heart will eventually harden...

song for today,
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls


signing off,
Broken heart